Friday, September 19, 2008

Hey! Don't bring me down!

Did not go to school today, regretted it so much..the reason? I missed my donuts so much! Grrr!! I woke up at 7 today and heard my mom waking me up, i was like, mumbling I don't want to go sheepishly..and she was nagging at me when my sis said, "Aiyo, nevermind la, let her sleep.." and just like that, my mom close the door. I felt myself smiling and stared at my sis with my eyes half closed and then, dozed off again. XDD Yesterday, we all went for ShoGun, then I remembered that vonnie said she's eating steamboat also.. LOL..I was walking like a DUCKK!!! XDD after all the practices and runs, my joints were so sore!! XDDD Can't help laughing at myself all the time while walking. It was so funny!!

Tomorrow, I'm going to get my jab, maybe this time I will be brave, or I will knock out, everytime I stare at that needle, so many things come to my mind, as if I'm GOING TO DIE!! XDDDD but it wasn't that painful afterall, compared to all the pain and sufferings and tears of people who are less fortunate, they have to get so many jabs everyday, go through operations, but mostly, feeling lonely and scared.. I really want to go to each and everyone of them, hold their hands tightly and hug them tightly.. let them know, I will never give up on them forever..

Vonnie, I didn't want to go China cause..I know I will miss all of you so much..one week is like so so so so long..I will cry like shit if I were to leave.. don't say anything, that's me..
Going to China will give me a nice feeling that I'm nearer to them, him..but, the nearer I am to them, I want to be right beside them, forever. But, I need to wake up, it will never come true.

I told Sam that I never believe in fate. I told Sam, that as long as we keep faith, as long as we keep moving forward, dreams will come true. I want her to hold onto this. Even though..I'm shaking with great fear, because of this word, "we are meant to be" if I cling on to that, I'm letting fate to play with our relationships, we'll always fear for what's gonna happen tomorrow.

If I were to wait, I will wait forever. I fear no death, because I have you.

-standingbyyou-














Posted by dark-wings at 9/19/2008 02:38:00 PM