Sunday, September 21, 2008
It was a frigging long day.. I'm sitting here, squeezing my huge plushie dog because it smells good..or because it's the only thing for me to talk to.. Papa and Kohkoh left us for UAE and I did my best not to cry there..Papa came to hug me and I gave him a big squeeze before shoo-ing him away or else I'm going to burst into tears.. at last, I broke down in the car, Mama is in her room, shedding her tears and tearing my hearts to bits.. I could just wipe her tears but the pain remains in her heart.. This is Life, isn't it? Human strive to survive in the world, there are bitter and sweet.. I will wish that I don't belong to this world.. where tears are our companion when we are lonely.. laughters are so impermanent.. The only times that we are happy is when our loved ones are with us.. Smiling together is the true meaning of reuniting.. And I love all of them..with that, I will learn, I will adapt to all this realistic truth but I will make their lives better..I will bring smiles to them, I'll make them proud, I'll make them keep faith that tomorrow will be better, I'll love them always always and forever..
I remembered how my Papa always tell me that, The Power of Now.. is what I should learn from.. he told me to tolerate, and learn about every single thing in the world, to be humble to every single person, to treat everyone sincerely, to not tell lies, to always be spiritually strong, and..to love my family and friends.. I remembered, Papa, I do remember them.. though I'm still far from your expectations, your daughter me, is proud to have you in her life. I love you, Papa.. I will take care of Mama.. don't you worry, I will protect her and love her like I've always do, forever..
When I stepped into the airport, I felt a gust of wind that chilled me down my spine.
I felt that he was there.
-standingbyyou-
Posted by dark-wings at 9/21/2008 09:37:00 PM